Outta here
The proprietor of the Web-based City Lights would like to announce that the blog, which has been shining damn near continuously for just under five years, is going dark today, for at least a year. I’m doing it as an energy-saving initiative, trying to do my part to stave off climate change.
Well, OK, that’s not the reason. The real reason is a bit more complicated, but it boils down to this: About two weeks ago I just flat-out got tired of blogging, of always having an opinion, a point of view, an observation or something funny—something that I hoped was funny—to say. At first, I thought maybe I’d give up the dead-tree City Lights, too, and see what it would be like to be purely a reporter again. After considering all my options and consulting with various colleagues, family members and my trusted assistant blogger, Josie, I decided to give only the blogging a break, and to see if that makes the business of writing the dead-tree column any easier or more enjoyable. I guess I’ll find out.
Once I decided to quit, I thought June 1 would be a good date, being the start of the month and in some sense the start of a new season. I didn’t think then how important the date would be here at the Kemmick household. My youngest daughter turned 18 yesterday and graduates from Billings Senior High today. Talk about the start of a new season. Her future is lying at her feet like the Yellow Brick Road, and for me, with the prospect of empty nesthood right around the corner, the future seems like something I ought to be thinking about again.
You don’t do much thinking about the future when you’re blogging. This is a relentlessly topical medium, driven mostly by the news, and a blogger by necessity writes quickly, in one draft. That can be a hell of a lot of fun, and a nice relief from the more grinding chores associated with being a reporter, but it gets old, too. And it can be a large distraction, especially on days when I’m working on a complicated story and am constantly interrupting myself to read new comments as they fall into the queue, and then responding to comments or following links provided by the latest person to join the discussion.
I have to admit that another reason June 1 was an attractive end date was that it would mean quitting before getting into another presidential campaign. I have never been all that excited about politics, but politics is the lifeblood of the blogosphere and I found myself being drawn into the vortex much more often than was good for my mental health. Any campaign gets ugly, but a presidential race inevitably raises passions to an almost unbearable pitch, and too often during the last go-round I felt less like a blogger than a hapless teacher standing in the middle of a cafeteria-wide food fight. It will give me great pleasure to observe this campaign from the sidelines, as it were.
I’m sure it will pain me some mornings to wake up rarin’ to throw out my 2 cents on some pressing issue of the day … only to remember that I am blogless, a blowhard without a bully pulpit, a pundit without a podium. I hope it will also be a relief, knowing that I can tuck some stray thought away before it issues forth and embarrasses me. Maybe I’ll even go back to keeping a private journal, the late-Jurassic forerunner of the blog. The great thing about a journal is that your audience is no longer, potentially, the 2 billion people online every day, but only yourself. That is a more demanding audience in some ways, one that urges you to write with honesty and openness and to say something worth saying.
I’m sure I had a few dozen other things I meant to say, but to ramble on would seem to suggest an unwillingness to let go, and letting go is what I sat down this morning to do. So I’ll just go….


